This is not my usual sarcastic post. I am curious to know how many of you feel "grounded", and if so, how grounded are you?
Let me step back for a minute. I went "home" this past weekend for a family function. I don't get home very often, but I got to see a lot of my police friends and some of my "regular" friends, as well as family. It's always good to catch up with friends. While having breakfast with one particular group, they asked the usual question about "when are you moving back?" I gave them the usual, "My life is in Houston, now", and never gave it two thoughts - until the next day when one of my police friends said that he was going to retire at 60 and get out of town, maybe moving out west somewhere.
It struck me then. I am not "anchored". I chose not to have children. I agreed to marry my husband and move to Houston, away from my family, friends and career in law enforcement. I started a new life, here, but like most married couples, my husband and I set into a routine where we were each other's best friend (not a bad thing), and then we socialized less and less, because we had each other. We became home bodies.
Fast forward several years, and my husband and I divorced, remained best friends, but he died unexpectedly, very shortly after our divorce. I picked up the pieces and forged on as best i could. I grieved. I had support from a really wonderful group of friends. I survived, but with the turn of events this weekend, I realized I really don't have a complete life here, or back home. I have no kids. I have no grandkids. My friends are busy with their own lives and families. I have some friends who want to move away when they are older, too. I have to say, all of this really has thrown me for a loop. Am I really "living" my life, or just getting by and making sure my bills get paid? What about you? 4951