I made one small step yesterday. I was looking for space to put something in the pantry, and I decided to get rid of the 12-15 empty coffee cans stacked on the bottom shelf. Last month, DD suggested I get rid of them and I proceeded to check the supply list for VBS and then show her tons of google images for crafts that can be done with coffee cans. She agreed they would come in handy.
Last year, I had a similar collection of coffee cans that DH insisted I throw away. Just a few weeks later, a church friend posted on FB that she needed empty coffee cans donated for a church function. I was so aggravated that I had thrown them away and had none to donate. That is why I checked the VBS supply list last month.
Yesterday, I had a light bulb moment, and I decided to accept these realities. 1) I enjoy making crafts. 2) I am good at making crafts. 3) I currently have no time for crafts. 4) My ability to be crafty does not determine my value as a mother.
As I told my DS to place all of those cans in the recycling bin, he looked very surprised. I told him the conclusions I had come to and added, "By the time I am able to do crafts again, I will have more coffee cans or other supplies." He said, "I'm proud of you, Mom." In that moment, I realized that letting go of those items was actually a relief, and I wanted more of the same.
It seems like such a small thing, but I feel like I took a meaningful step in the right direction yesterday. Wish me luck. 4951