I can't be alone here...? You don't need pills, especially if they're making you lose your will. To do anything. Sex drive, smile, take out the trash, whatever.
They didn't have pills centuries ago and here we are. If you're able to post a literate message on this board, you're not bat---- crazy or end-of-world depressed.
Ditch the pills. Work out. Exercise. Punch a bag. Walk, run, lift weight until you can't. Scream into a pillow. BREATHE DEEP. Let the stress out, face it. You will NEVER find happiness in a pill.
You've got to go after it. Fight the disease in your head, not the symptoms. I dare you to try it once. "Be the Hero of your own story".
Just make today NO EXCUSE OR LAZINESS DAY. Just one day.
Act weird. Do SOMETHING. 4951